people saying things that they don't mean. just saying it out of fluff. hmms, yeah, whatever. i can't be bothered with this kinda people anymore ya know. so much has been on my mind lately. so much, that i'm thanking for my forgetfulness. i have been so busy that days seem to zoom by without me knowing it. i feel like i'm walking through, without knowing anything, just walking through a daze. i have no idea what to think, what to feel. i don't feel anymore. inside's empty. empty. in a midst of so many people, why do i feel alone. like i have to face everything by myself? i guess, i'm just thankful of now, of my forgetfulness, cause, with all these stuff overwhelming me, and, me being so forgetful, so busy with so many other things, i tend to forget, i mean seriously forget, till you have no idea why are you feeling like that, or when a friend asks you what's wrong, but, you have no response. they might think that you just don't wanna tell them anything, but, i tell you. maybe, sometimes, i just don't wanna say. maybe at times, i just don't know what to say. or just forget about it, purposely, as the pain goes away faster then. but, sometimes, i do forget comepletely, i really do. so, sometimes, if i don't answer, or if i seem like i'm lying, you know what's going on.

ya know, just for the people i love and care about, i pretend that nothings going on, and i just tolerate them, even tho, i have so much to say in response, so much, so much, i keep all inside. everything's like going on in my head. i know i can, but, i keep it all inside, just so that the ones that i deeply care about, would not get hurt instead.

just to say. he is very irritating. i think the rage part and stuff is kicking in right now. cause, more and more i can't stand the sight of him. i feel grossed out when i see him, people mention him, or when i just "hang out" with him/them, even tho, at times i just don't want to. ya know. so, that's not good, is it? i don't know. i'm just feeling this way i guess.

i had the worse nightmare that day. the kind that you can't seem to wake up from. it sucked. cause, because of that, i only had 3 hours of sleep, with an exam the next day. i was cranky. anyone would be too. so if i stepped on anyone's toes that fateful day, sorry.

ok this is so random.

anyways, out of the fluff that i'm feeling,

i miss you guys. ((:

us.

hangin at ritz. jkt 190306 remember forever.

even though we were stinky and stuff, we still love each other to bits. stinky-ness or not. haha

through all the tears and laughters. what does not kill us makes us stronger. ((:

randoms.

thanks for the moon. the over 20++ pictures you had to take, before getting the perfect one. ((:

i love the view too. ((:

caleen and i. ((:

thanks so much too, yeah?

me and jac.

the sister and i. tho the fights and misunderstandings, i still love you. even tho, at times i don't show it, i do.((:

muhd and i. crappyness and all.

later ya'll.

love,

manda.